Thursday, September 30, 2010

Ten minutes

is how long AFTER the girls school started that I woke up.
How long it took me to gently wake them from sleep. ( yeah right, more like jump on them until they woke up begging me to stop)
How long it took us to find shoes that match for everyone.
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And finally it TOOK me TEN mintutes to find the darn pone to call the school and tell them they were late.
Because mommy was up to late facebooking and over slept.

Just being honest.
even the cat was judging me
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I didnt want to be up facebooking. But I just couldn't fall asleep. I wonder if it is some crazy effect of the hcg ??
Yesterday went well. I had some tummy troubles in the afternoon, but who knows what that was from ?

I made Will bring me a IN =N= OUT Burger home for dinner.( for those of you just joining us days one and two are fat loading days )

with CHESSE fries
BOTH animal style !!!!

It was awesomeness.

I could only finish about half of it.

How do people eat like that ? I know this sounds really dumb. But I don't know why i am so fat ! I mean really, I never buy cookies, cake, or anything sugary.

My kids hate me because I never allow fruit snacks into the house. We only buy chips for lunches for school.

We do eat fast food. But only on weekends. And we really like subway.

I know my habits are from from perfect.
But I don't know that they are deserving of being so heavy either.
Maybe this is all some delusion I have talked myself into. Maybe those of you who know me in real life are thinking" geez Lauren I saw how much pizza you had last weekend "

I know hcg is not a magic drop.
I know I have to change my lifestyle to make it effective in the long run.
But I really feel like I do need some kind of reset to my body.

So here we go onto day two ! My final fat loading day !
Tomorrow its all apples and chicken. ( you can have more then that, but I like the way apples and chicken sound together )

don't forget to enter the giveaway for the fabulous handmade bag by Robin at well of creations

giveaway here

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Morning one......

The moment when you first wake up in the morning is the most wonderful of the twenty-four hours.  No matter how weary or dreary you may feel, you possess the certainty that, during the day that lies before you, absolutely anything may happen.  And the fact that it practically always doesn't, matters not a jot.  The possibility is always there.  ~Monica Baldwin

Kiss sleepy face good morning ( I kiss all three but only one will let me take a picture )

Coffee , YES PLEASE !!!
make lunches

and this mornings routine included taking my first seven hcg drops. Today and tomorrow I HAVE too eat A LOT ! Seriously.

Its part of the plan.
Thats why I had fried eggs for breakfast.

This eating a lot is actually harder then it looks.
Its almost noon and I am going to do my second round of drops.
Then try to find a big lunch.
Maybe a big salad with LOTS of dressing ????

This mornings drops burned my mouth a little.
Anyone know if that is normal ?

Quick rundown of how the diet works.

buy hcg drops ( you can also get injections of the stuff but ewwww... I hate needles ) I bought mine at HI Health.
Day one and day two you take seven to ten drops three times a day under your tongue. And you have to eat a lot of really bad for you food, so your body has stuff to burn off right away.

day three- twenty seven.

keep the drops the same but you have a seriously strict diet. its only 5oo calories. Without the drops this is a super bad thing. You won;t lose weight because your bosy will think its starving. But the drops help- tell your body that its all ok and that you can let go of the fat and not starve.

I have a lot of fat my body can feel free to let go of.

The hcg allows your body to burn calories from existing fat cells you already have in your body.

I am not a doctor. I am just repeating what I was told.

Off to make lunch.

anyone want to bring me a big mac ??

giveaway here

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I just want to be the me I see inside.

I posted on my facebook earlier this evening about picking up some hcg drops. I was surprised at the comments , questions and support I received in my little social media network.

But first ......

I want to remind you all about the super fab giveaway i have going on just one post below this one.  Its really easy to enter. just comment on the post and answer the question what inspires you to create. I will let pick a winner one week from today.


Moving back on to weight loss . I want to feel like me. 
I am bearing my soul here but I really HATE being over weight, 
Especially because I am a photographer.
I want to be comfortable being in front of the camera.

I want to be healthy .
I want to be happy in my own skin.
I know being happy in my own skin will take more then some magic weight loss drops.

but being healthier and having more energy will help me feel better about me.

And that's important.

I need all the energy i can get with this little one running around
Myka on Mothers day 2010. from kennagurls on Vimeo.

A giveaway and a new sponsor !!

I am so excited !! this is my first giveaway!1 I have noticed a lot of people stopping by the rowdy house on Robin, but not a lot of comments.

So I have decided I am not above bribery.

My dear friend Robin of well of creations has been such a inspiration to me as I have tried to navigate the waters of all things creative. Her writing and her art available on ETSY speak volumes about what a amazing person and artist she is. And her desire to inspire others to be creative .

I am stealing these words of wisdom from Robins blog because I repeat them to myself EVERY day !!

“Chase down your passion like it’s the last bus of the night”
- Glade Byron Addams

Chase it down people !!  Can you imagine just getting off work, being cold , tired, hungry. Knowing that home and the people you love were just one bus ride away. You walk up to the bus sop just to see the bus you need to be on pulling away.

How fast would you run ?
How desperate would you be to catch that bus ?
Imagine if we chased our dreams and our passions like we would chase that bus.

What if we stopped worrying about other people critiques and criticisms ?

What if we all created just to create ?

I think the world would be a much prettier place.

Robin was generous enough to be my first sponsor and to give me this AWESOME handmade back pack to give away to one lucky reader.

Sometimes my ten year old looks so sweet I could just eat her up.

Then she decides she is done with being my model and demands I let her go in the house and eat a pickle.

true story.

All you have to do to win this darling backpack  is leave a comment with your e mail address answering the following question.

What inspires you to create ?

I will pick the winner using one week from now on October 5th.

I can't wait to read the comments !!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

What a weekend !!

This weekend + my M.O.P.S girls = crazy fun !!
We talked about identity. How to help others find their identity in Christ.
We shared our stories.
Our goals.
Our fears.

We planned meetings !
Meetings where moms can get together and have FUN !
And learn.
And grow as mothers and daughters of the king.
we ate yummy food for dinner and candy as a midnight snack.

Drank 22 cans of soda.

Tried to be sneaky and get a free margarita but was turned down because my ID was in my wallet in our hotel room.
And we did a little of this


Don't ask I will never tell.

Now I am off to the store. I need some retail therapy. And I have to go grocery shopping.

I HATE grocery shopping.

But I do like knowing having food in my pantry so I guess it;s kind of a have to do thing.

Last week I photographed  this .

it was AMAZING.

Bring it on Monday !!

Friday, September 24, 2010

A quick one.

I am off to a girls only retreat this weekend.

Talking, laughing. bonding, and chick flick watching will be happening.

But this morning is busy.

Very busy.

It will all be worth it.
I will be back with lots of pictures I hope.

I stole this from one of my favorite blogs .

you should listen to it. Its good stuff.

Happy Friday.

Oh, my Fridays funny story.
Once when I was 16 I locked  my keys inside my car .
wait for the funny part..... 
the car was still running. It made sense. if I was leaving my car running I didn't want anyone to steal it.

The even funnier part.

I did it again. The same day !!

Happy Friday !

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Who am I ?

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Photo taken by the talented Jeanette of In the Light photography

I have been thinking a lot about my identity lately.

Who am I ?

I know the short answer. I am a wife, mom, photographer, daughter, and friend.

Sometimes I am creative, more often I am cranky.

I am the finder of lost shoes and the maker of the lunches.

I am sleepy.

But there is more.

So much more

*deep breath*

I am the daughter of a KING ! That's right folks I am a real life true story, i am so not kidding princess !!

I always knew this. But lately it has really hit home. I struggle with not keeping my identy wrapped up in what other people think about me. I am realizing the truth that it doesn't matter what other people think about me. Now don't get me wrong.

I LOVE people.

But I will run around all day trying to make everyone happy. Desperate to make sure you like me.

Its so silly.

If i had one smidge of a idea of how much I am loved by God i don't think I would even think about what other people think about my housekeeping skills or the outfit I am wearing. Or if my children are getting straight A's or how much money we make.

I was watching the television show addicted a few days ago while i cleaned the kitchen. It was about a 18 year old girl addicted to drugs. The show is all about helping people over come addictions and the reasons they become addicted.

It scared me.

As a mother it scared me.
As a mother of THREE daughters it scared me even more.

I dropped to my knees in my kitchen and prayed .

I prayed that my daughters would know their value. That God would protect their hearts , their minds, and their bodies from the evil of this world.

That they would be strong and fearless leaders. That they would never doubt their purpose in life. That they will know that they are chosen and set apart by God.

Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. Ephesians 1:4 (New Living Translation)

Please God.

Let them know this.

Help me to understand this.


Tuesday, September 21, 2010

My friends are back !!

OK, I am sooo excited.
My friends have come home.
My favorite television shows are back on !!

Oh House , you remind me of my husband. except he's you know, not a doctor.  I am a big fan of ' Huddy " btw !!

I am perhaps the most excited about this. It just fills me with GLEE! I am such a gleek.  Rachel has bangs !! Did she have bangs last season ??


And these guys of course.........

And this show looks really interesting. Both myself and Will graduated in the year 2000. This show literally is MY generation. the beginning part of this preview made me cry a little.

so , now you know what i am looking forward to this fall. Me and my hubby curled up on the couch with the dvr and a glass of wine.

What are your favorite shows ?

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Random thoughts about today .......

My internet was down for about three hours this morning.

Not cool.

That's like taking away my oxygen.


Miss Lexi got her own room today. She needs her own space. Shes like a real big kid now. I am noticing that Ash and Myka are playing together more and more. Lexi is wanting to spend more time with her friends.
And by herself...writing....... singing songs ... making up dance routines. I remember what it was like to be ten.
Ten was when I started listening to the radio, This was my favorite song.



I am worried about my grandma. I cant go into details. If I could ask you all to pray for her. Well , that would be wonderful.
Oh, and if i ever have a house with a swimming pool. I want one like this


Wednesday, September 15, 2010

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perhaps our eyes need to be washed with tears so we can see clearly again.

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Today my eyes are getting a good washing.  I am extra emotional because i have not been sleeping well. make that Myka has not been sleeping well. She is complaining her nose hurts. She did take a tumble off a chair the other day. But her cute nose does not appear to be in any distress.

Today my mom moved to the other side of the world.

Ok so more like the country. But still. Wisconsin may as well be japan when you have three kids and no money for air line travel. We hugged goodbye this morning before i headed out the door to bible study. I couldn't watch her drive away. I just couldn't handle the tearful goodbye.
I made it short and sweet, And have been crying my eyes out since I got home from bible study.
I know I will be ok .

i need to put my big girl panties on.
But I think its ok to still want your mom when you are 28 years old.

Maybe I'm just a baby. Lexi went off to school in tears. She didn't hide her emotions about Grandma leaving at all. She thinks it sucks.

And so do I.

I am off to clean house when my body wants to nap. But i am scared if I nap I will be crabbier then when I fell asleep. I bought some lemons and limes I want to chop up and put in a vase. I wanted to do this yesterday. But then i started thinking about how expensive fresh flowers were. But then I opened my front door and saw the sweetest little yellow flowers that are growing right outside my door.

Fresh flowers right outside my door !! Flowers i walk by everyday and never notice. Exactly what i need to cheer me up on a day like today. Sometimes in life its the small things.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Things I loved about today

Myka drinking milk from her cereal bowl ( who taught her to do this ?? )

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The result of myka drinking milk from her cereal bowl . And I want to add the only reason I liked this part was because I thought the fruit loops and milk looked like a cool picture. i was right.
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Myka watching TV while i cleaned the kitchen. I hate using the TV as a babysitter. But it is nice to have something to entertain them for 15 minutes while you make a phone call, do the dishes, write a e mail, go to the bathroom ALL BY YOURSELF !!

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And stumbling across this tutorial while I was googling ways to change my blog up  bit. I posted a full tutorial over at laurenjean. But basically i found a way to make my nifty fifty a macro lens, and took this pic.
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So what did you love about today ?? And can anyone tell me how to make the column wider so i can post bigger pictures ??

Monday, September 13, 2010

I need my own space

I have been blogging for a while now over at laurenjean . But I need my own space. Somewhere I can post my lame attempts at crafting, baking, and maybe one day sewing !?!

It could happen !!!

I need a space to post pictures that may not look "professional" but capture my life.

I need a space to be me.

To let my cyber hair down so to speak.

WELCOME to the rowdy house on Robin !!!